Had to take a breather for a few days. Was just getting overly caught up in 2017 feeling like 2016 all over again. It will be different as I will approach it differently. Perspective makes a lot of things in life easier to handle. Care about the things I can change and try not to care as much about the ones I can't. Hmm sounds a lot like the serenity prayer. Maybe I need to think about that just a little more. Some how I know or think I know that this year will be the same if I don't keep this in mind all year long. Glad to say the germs have gone away for the most part Yeah for that. Got a chance to unpack, and start some serious clean up on my house, it's not really dirty, I just like to keep things neat and tidy. Last week ended with hopefully finding a new hire, only time will tell for sure, feeling pretty caught up on work, and oh.. getting hit at a stop light this am. And the guy who hit me...says oh I'm late can we hurry this up? Seriously? You hit me because you wanted to go straight on a green arrow... guess you will be a little later... BREATH...JUST BREATH! Some how I want to continue to take it all with a grain of salt, keep a sense of humor and find the change in me.
Sad. Disgusting. Horrible. Pathetic. I guess I could go on all night with negative words to describe the step-children of my recently deceased Aunt. It was not 2 days before she went to the hospital that my Mom received a call from one of these parasites saying get her out of my house. I can't take her anymore. she won't do anything. Of course she could't do anything...she was dieing! these same cold heartless people are now so sad posting on facebook how they will miss her. But they couldn't wait to get hold of her will, her bank accounts her insurance policy. None of that matters. People who hadn't thought of her, come to see her or even spoken to her in years have come out of the wood work because they now care so much. and hope to get some piece of what might be left behind. Truly a side of people I can't stand. Sad how superficial and fake people can be for the love of money.
A roll I find myself in often, and is somewhat suiting to my life desires, is to be the silent supporting staff to what ever events may be occuring around me. At the moment that role is in preparation of my Aunt's funeral. She passed away late last evening. I am not able to fly back home for the funeral. But you can bet I am doing all I can from hundreds of miles away. Phone is on 24/7. I'm doing the photo collage and having it delivered to my family. I have the skills in that area. But more than that, I am attempting to keep a close watch on my mother. She's no spring chicken. This life event has not been easy for her. It came up rather quickly and was over before there was a lot of time to process it. And now she stands alone. The only child left from her parents, with no close cousins or others to lean on, she is the true matriarch of our family. She has good support from my sister, her husband(even less of a spring chicken) and a few good friends. None of that is enough to keep me from being concerned. I spoke to Mom, in detail when she was on the way to be at her sisters side through those last few hours, and we talked about how hard it is to know that sometimes death is the best for the one that is leaving us, while we will always wonder and hope for more quality time. Key word there, quality! I always make my hopes, wishes and prayers for those that are facing difficult health situations to be for their best interest, peace and comfort. My true hope today is that my dear Aunt is now finding peace, something that eluded her most of her days on earth.
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